My brother, Aaron, and I had some fun with Dad's camera today. We took pictures of our cat, Alexander. Below are some of the best ones. I don't know if you guys have seen the lol cats on the Internet, (I think their website is http://www.icanhascheezburger.com/), but Aaron and I had a good time trying to think of good lol cat captions to go with them. I put our lol cat captions underneath some of the pictures. Enjoy! :) (italics are Mandy's captions, bold are Aaron's captions, and neither bold or italic are captions we came up with together.)
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Happy October! (and melancholy psychological ramblings)
Happy October, everyone! This is a watercolor painting I completed earlier this year. I hope you like it. I'm home alone right now with a cold and I'm a bit stir crazy, so I thought maybe blogging would help calm me down, only now I don't know what to write about... I know! I'll write about how I feel right now, being home alone with a cold and very stir crazy.
Mom, Dad, and my two youngest brothers are on a Christmas shopping trip in Las Vegas. My brothers are in high school and middle school and were able to go with Mom and Dad on Wednesday night because they had Thursday and Friday off of school. It's UEA weekend, when teachers in Utah go to a conference. (Utah Educators Association or something like that.) Then they have Monday off for what we in Cedar City like to call "Harvest Holiday." It's when Southern Utah hunters go harvest the deer. My brother Aaron and I are in college so we didn't get the UEA holiday, though we will have Monday off. Aaron went to St. George, so here I am, "alone and rusting in a corner." (Ha ha, no escaping movie references on this blog! :))
I feel so strange. In some ways, I love being home alone because I can act completely crazy and no one's around to care. I watch cartoons and movies I'm too embarrassed to watch when there are people around, I eat half a box of oreos, I work myself up into a hyper frenzy and run around the house, I imagine all the awesome movies I'd make if I had the resources and the ability to draw and animate, etc. Oh, I can draw a little, but I'm a complete amateur and not even close to talented enough to make a career of it. But anyway, when I finally sit down and try to act like a calm and rational person, I realize two things. First, that I was extremely stupid to eat all those oreos, and second, I'm really a bit lonely all by myself. And yet, even when I'm with people I'm still kind of alone. Psychologists have told me I have Asperger's Syndrome, albeit an extremely mild case. Maybe they're right, and maybe they're not, but it would explain why I have such trouble opening up to people. It could also explain why some days I just want everyone to go away, and other times I really wish I had someone to share all my crazy hobbies and obsessions with. I don't know if anyone really knows who I am. I don't know if I'm even sure who I am. ("Who am I? Now that is a great puzzle." Sorry. Random Alice In Wonderland quote. :)) I have so many thoughts and feelings zooming around in my head, yet you'd never know it because I'm so cut off from people, or at least I feel that way sometimes. I never know what to say or how to express myself. I do better with writing because I have plenty of time to think through what I want to say, but even then I have trouble. I don't want to be alone, but I feel as though there's no one out there who can truly understand me. My family knows me pretty well, (They've been stuck with me long enough :)), and I have some close friends who I can usually open up to a little, but I'm sure the people I went to school with consider me the most reserved, if not stuck up, emotionless little girl they ever saw. I'm so sorry, everyone. You probably didn't want to read me bearing my soul over here. I'll stop now, and thanks for being sympathetic.
For all my friends out there with blogs, I'm sorry I haven't been very faithful about visiting them lately. I'll try to do better in the future. I've been very busy with school and work and whatnot.
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